Tuesday, June 23, 2015

The ultimate squirt experience

If you've been following along the cameras at my house  then you have seen the interaction that is occurring between me and a new friend.  If you haven't, you are missing some hot action!

It's been a month since we starting hanging out and began in our sexual journey.  Things were off to a normal start with me dodging and not really taking him too serious.  If you KNOW me, you know my attention span is hella short when it comes to men so it's no surprise that one day they are here and the next they are gone.  But this one is different.

He barely touches me, kisses me and my pussy gushes everywhere!  He is the FIRST person who has made me squirt from licking my pussy!!!  I have never cum so many times, squirted so many times and thoroughly enjoyed the intimate interaction with someone as I do with him!

So the other day, we are having sex as we normally do until this moment came where he touched me, looked at me and was penetrating me in such a way that caused my pussy to project squirt onto him and it came back and showered me in the face and on my chest!  It was soooo fuckin' hot!

The poor bedding on my bed is soaked on a daily basis to the point that there are puddles in the mattress.  I have been told the plastic mattress protectors are worthless and don't hold under extreme sexual escapades so no need in wasting my time with that.  Any suggestions??

Friday, May 1, 2015

Would you date a man who is BISEXUAL or likes TRANSGENDER?

As of late, I seem to be meeting more men that are into alternative lifestyles who admit to having bisexual affairs and attractions to transgenders.  One guy is probably straight up gay... but wasn't honest about his sexuality and I have NO idea what he wanted with me.

Today I had a conversation with a guy from a dating site that admitted he likes transgenders.  I asked him if he had sex with them and he openly answered yes.  I am not judging, but question whether or not that is something I could handle in a relationship or potential sexual situation.

I appreciate the honesty, since the other guy wasn't honest AT ALL but left a lot of clues that definitely screamed that he was batting for the other team.  So how do I feel about this?  I have never really taken the time to really think about it and decide of this is something I am ok with.

-=============== To be continued ============- 

Thursday, April 30, 2015

FAN QUESTION: Kim Kardashian, Khloe & Kylie Jenner

I have started answering fan questions and this was one of the first one's that caught my attention.

"With the recent viral videos of the "Kylie Jenner Challenge" what is your opinion of the Kardashians and the message they send to our youth?"

This is such a good question and required me to really think about my response.  I will be open, honest and candid.

I think the Kylie Jenner Challenge is by far the stupidest thing to hit the Internet,  The fact that people would do things like this to their bodies to attempt to have bigger lips is ridiculous.  Honestly, that ties into my whole opinion about the Kardashians entirely.  The message that they send to our youth and to the general public is the importance of having money, surgery and the constant need for the "perfect" physical appearance is misleading.

We live in an instant gratification generation.  The "I" generation which seeks approval from the masses and through surgeries, physical augmentation, tattoos, piercings, material items and appearance extremities simply alter their natural beauty but don't fix the underline issues within.  I don't judge, by any means but I certainly feel that it becomes an obsession that ultimately destroys you and doesn't bring you the satisfaction you are hoping to achieve.  For those who DO reach a successful gratification, by all means more power to you.  My concern is for those who will spend thousands of dollars to still have the issues mentally and emotionally they are hoping will be disappear.

This topic is much like weight loss.  It's great when you are doing something proactive to change your weight but the weight loss as a whole doesn't fix the inner emotional damage that can come from common weight issues.  You have to do more than just lose the weight and change your physical appearance with counseling or simply changing how you feel and think about yourself.  

The Kardashians are a very powerful source with their effect on the world.  I wished they would send the message to LOVE yourself no matter WHAT you look like and promote self acceptance.  But how you can you do that if you are challenging the world to put their lips in a bottle cap so they can look bigger?  

Wednesday, April 29, 2015

Day 2 front door riots emerge

As many have you seen on the news and CNN, the Baltimore Riots have gotten completely out of control and if you are following my blog you read about my first night in the #WARZONE.  We are in the midst of the 2nd night of the neighborhood chaos and it seems to be quiet.  The curfew has been initiated and thus far people seem to be subdue.  There is definitely a presence of law enforcement and the National Guard.

The community is trashed, broken glass everywhere you go and burned businesses.  I shop at a local beauty supply store and have become familiar with the people that own the store. Hearing about them in the front of their store with weapons, ready to attack anyone who tries to loot their store is so sad.  The devastation that is left with the chaos that has unfolded is by far a life changing experience.

I have received an out poor of calls, emails, messages, texts, tweets and various communications asking if I am ok.  Physically, I am alive and well.  Mentally and emotionally, I am still processing the turmoil I witnessed from my bathroom window.  The images of the war zone, the faces of the looters and the lack of respect for our community will remain a constant reminder forever.  The sounds of the angry people, hearing the out rage and chaos that was only a few feet away from my door.

The photos you see were taken from the BBWCAMHOUSE windows, live as the events took place.  I can't even begin to describe how I feel right now or what is going through my mind as I process the experience and the things I've witnessed.  I've had people tell me "You don't know what it feels like to be targeted, profiled and racially attacked."  Quite the contrary... 

But that is neither here nor there.  Each day that passes, we hope that this madness will end and we can go back to our lives if that's even possible.  Feeling like you are a prisoner in your own home is where I am at now, afraid to go out there and take a look at what's left of this neighborhood.

Everything must go on.  

Top 10 dating site pet peeves

10.  One word messages

You get ONCE chance to make a first impression.  HI, SEXY, WASSUP aren't going to get my attention.  They are just warning signs that getting to an intelligent conversation are either impossible or going to take about 30 messages of which I am uninterested in entertaining conversations that look like every other conversation.

You:  HI
Me:  Hi...
You:  How are you?
Me:  Fine
You:  That's good.
Me:   ....  you lost me already.  

9.  Abbreviating words like HRU, WYD

Spell the words out.  It's NOT that hard to just type HOW ARE YOU or WHAT ARE YOU DOING?

8.  Pictures of more than 1 person (you aren't sure who THEY are), photos of food, cars, dogs, money, watches, etc.

Who am I even talking to??  If I have to guess, I am not even interested.  Where's waldo pictures don't impress me.  As to posting photos of food and other shit, that's SO annoying.  That is NOT you.  I am NOT impressed by the car you drive, the wad of cash you got from cashing your pay check, or the food you ate and later shitted out.  No thanks.  Stick to photos of YOURSELF.

7.  Asking for MORE pictures.

I put photos on my profile for you to see who I am.  There are SEVERAL that I chose carefully for you to see who I am.  If you want entertainment with photos, you can get a membership to my website.

6.  Not having photos or having SUPER old photos or SCANNED photos (who does that anymore) or photos from the club in front of a background!

You want to see who I am and I want to see who I am talking to.  I don't even chat with people that don't have photos.  As to scans... come on we are in 2015 so there is no need to have scanned photos.  Photos from the club, that was so 90's lol let's live in the current times.

5.  20 questions like an interrogation or job interview

I know you want to get to know me but some things are either in my profile already or none of your business.  If I feel we have some sort of connection I will share certain things but asking me in depth personal questions are annoying.

4.   Asking me my bra size, or asking me how much I weigh

Self explanatory.

3.  Asking for OTHER social profiles like snapchat or kik!

No, I don't want to go from one site to another or an app.  End of story.

2.  Unfilled out profiles - don't be lazy!

If I can take the time to describe myself, I expect you to do the same.

1.  Calling me FAT when you get rejected!!

I was fat when you messaged me.  Nothing is attractive about a sore loser.

Do you have any dating site stories you want to share?  Questions you want me to answer in my blog or video diaries?  Email platinumpuzzy@gmail.com subject:  FAN QUESTIONS

Tuesday, April 28, 2015

The evolution of a boss

The events of the last few months have been rather trying.  I wasn't sure how I was going to make it through without giving up totally and going back to repair the personal life that I have neglected the past few years.  None the less, I stay focused on my projects and dedicated to the end result no matter the cost.

One of the lessons I have learned and had to adjust to is not allowing everyone into your personal business and life.  For a long time, I had a hard time knowing who and when to separate the two.  In the end it always ends up biting me in the ass when the situation heads south and they decide to take everything they learn about you personally and use it against you.  Luckily, I've learned to divulge less personal information and keep a strong barrier between the two.

Trust is definitely something I value.  I was so free to give it away and believe that people are still GOOD until proven otherwise.  NOT the case anymore.  I realize now that people will play whatever role they have to in order to gain what it is they set out to get.  Hidden agendas will hide who they really are.  Lies will mask their true identity.

Shedding the toxic elements that plagued my circle was the most freeing experience.  I noticed that life became so much less dramatic and I was much more calm and at ease with my life.  My choices reflected the positive changes and my spirit felt so light.  Who knew that I had so much waste in my presence.

Saying good bye is not easy, and I do so with silence.  I find myself letting things go quietly and simply moving on.  It simplifies the process and tends to be far less dramatic.  Peace definitely has found me.

Baltimore Riots in my backyard, literally

You can't imagine what it's like until you are up at 2am with the sounds of people yelling outside your bedroom window screaming to the looters in the stores that cops are coming.  There's about 20 people outside, clearly visible from the window looting the stores in the shopping center directly next to the house.

I can't go to sleep, my stomach is in knots and I am mentally exhausted from the fear that sits in my heart that they will turn and start burning the houses.  Every noise scares me, every sound sets me into a panic.  The choppers aren't even flying in the area anymore, and the cops stopped coming to check out the looting.  Clearly they feel they "secured" the area and most of the stores inventory is gone anyways.

The sound of the store alarm continues in the background and you hear cars screeching from out of the parking lot trying to avoid the police catching them.  As I look out the bathroom window, I see 4 trucks and cars pull up and people start jumping out running into the back of the stores for more merchandise.  The scene is like a movie, but the credits aren't rolling yet.

What you see on television is playing out before your very eyes.  Even when you close them, the sounds of the war outside remind you that you aren't dreaming and it's the reality of what is going on at this very moment.  All I want to do is pack up and get away.

Vegas is calling me.

Monday, April 27, 2015

To be shamed or not shamed?

My whole life has been filled with what the public would be considered "shameful" decisions and choices.  From being over weight most of my life to dating outside my race and now being a proud sex worker.  Ironically, I find no shame in ANY of these choices and quite proud that I have never been one to "fit in."

As a young girl who started to gain weight as puberty set in, I always found my peace in being different and unique.  I've never been afraid to stand out or be myself even if it lead to judgment and ridicule.  For me, it's actually liberating to have my own identity and not feel the pressure to be what everyone else thought I should be.

Unfortunately, the world doesn't embrace and accept this same concept and way of living.  Matter of fact, it's common to be subject cruelty when you fail to follow their fads and ideals of popularity.  I have been the victim of many situations where I was bullied and made fun of in similar scenarios.

I've been fortunate to find myself and love myself through these tragic situations that taught me a very valuable lesson.  Being yourself is the best way to find happiness.  NO ONE dictates your happiness but you.  I still face shaming, stares, rude comments and insults but now I just smile and brush it off my shoulders.  I know deep down THEY are uncomfortable with themselves and that's why they choose to attack me.

I will say, I have a very supportive family that loves me for me and has been the rock that held me down in the times of weakness and vulnerability.  I haven't always been able to fight it... and I can truly say I am blessed.  LOVING ME and NEVER TO BE ASHAMED!!